Answers Questions Never Asked

Well, in the previous blog(read it once if you haven't), I talked about the desire paradox, and at the end, things revolved around fate and astrology. Without even realizing it, I became the victim of fatalism. The moment it hit me, it shook me from within. I, who believe that I am investing a significant amount of time being practical and reasonable, simply let everything be around fate? Really? But I am here to bust the myth I created in my head.

This blog is my personal space. This is where I write down how I feel at the moment, and it's raw. Well paraphrased, if any grammatical errors, but you understand the gist. So the one who actually reads the blog is with me. With me in my consciousness, with me evolving, with me witnessing how I evolve, and to some extent creating karma for themselves with the energy.

Now shifting things a little bit to come to a point, cause that's what a storyteller does. My dad used to say to read books. He got all sorts of books from finance to spiritual and whatnot. For me, those were the most boring things in the whole world. Well, I was just 14, so I will give myself that grace for now. But now, when 19, I finished a book within a week, and I started reading the other one. I am a person who surrounds her conscience with questions. I may overanalyze things at times, but to be honest, that's how I function. A week ago, I started reading this book, The Greatness of Saturn. It had all the stories about the different grahas and their astrological norms, how they affect our lives, and all sorts of things. I felt like the purpose of the writer was to create awareness about different sorts of things that would happen if we do not really pay attention to what's around us. For example, how people say the concept of hell and heaven were made so that people abide by the law. The concept of all the stories of planets and the ones who don't obey them have to go through things is simply for us to create a consciousness that is aware of wrong and right deeds, to develop a consciousness that is humble to the prakriti and respects their surroundings. Well, a part of me had this consciousness developed whereas the other part of me bent slightly towards fatalism and here today I believe that was my misinterpretation.

After that book, I started reading Karma by Sadhguru. And guess what, today I got into the page

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This book spoke to me. My answers came to me, and I was so amazed. I read it with a little teardrop because I was so overwhelmed by the situation. This book talks on detachment philosophies that have been modified in a way that people have started living a life that lacks life in itself. Karma is the dissolution of your actions. You cannot avoid it by not living it. In fact, that way, you are creating more karma for yourself.
The book mentions how a true astrologer, if senses that you are in a spiritual journey, he won’t make predictions for you; instead, he will let you know how you do things to make life better. This reminded me the first time I went to an astrologer. He looked at my chart and, being very honest, he didn’t really make predictions. He said he sensed I was a spiritual person and he started telling about the stories of different gods in the cosmic level. I was ignorant to not understand why he didn’t make any predictions because that was why I was there. This was around 3 years ago, and now at this moment I am full of respect and gratitude for the Jyotish guru. And that person right there is a true astrologer.
I have interest in looking into our charts and understanding the pattern. That was what drove me to consult more astrologers to understand how to make predictions. Back home, I actually went alone to an astrologer without saying anything to my parents to come to the conclusion if my readings for my chart were correct or not. But at this situation, I understand astrology is not an exact map of how your life will be. Read this paragraph from the book:

Well quality so bad I just copied and pasted the text here

"But consider this scenario. A thousand years ago, if you were a seafarer and the winds were blowing east, you would go east. Maybe you wanted to go to America, but you would end up in Japan. That was inevitable. The winds decided your destiny. Not anymore. Let the winds blow whichever way they want, today we still make sure we go where we want to go! We propel our own lives. We don't allow the winds to push us this way and that. Similarly, with the life process, if you are self-propelled, we say you are on a spiritual path. If you are being pushed around by your accumulated tendencies, your habits and your prejudices, then you are at the mercy of your horror-scope!

Traditionally, families in India turned to horoscopes because these would indicate a person's tendencies, karmic substance, the possible directions their life might take. Based on this astrological reading, a person would turn to a spiritual practice that enabled them to transcend these tendencies. But somewhere along the way, we dropped the technologies of transcendence and got stuck with just the horror-scope! This is an unfortunate state of affairs."

With our day-to-day life, we are so much involved in the outside world that we tend to forget the enormous power we hold within our consciousness. How the strong desire for answers will come right to you if it's strong in your consciousness. We need to understand that not just are we part of the universe but also a different universe ourselves. It is as big as the outer one. It needs some exploration.

Thank you for keeping up with my irrational thoughts and how I finally understand them. Thank you for bearing with me for some misinterpretations and a lack of understanding.
I truly appreciate it.

For anyone Curious about the book, its name is "KARMA: A Yogi's Guide To Crafting Your Destiny"